First of all I want to send a big hug to those who still occasionally pop over and read this blog as sparse as it is these days. It’s like getting a hug to me when I check in and see new comments even when I’ve been so neglectful of keeping updates on here. Thank you so much!

Baby Hope and I are doing just fine. I will be 32 weeks this Saturday. I’m still getting contractions often but, at this point, the midwives say that with as many as I get if I haven’t had the baby yet then they are obviously not doing anything significant and not to worry unless I get other labor symptoms. That approach made sense to me and has eased my worries significantly. My blood pressure was back down to a normal range at my last check and I’ll get it checked again today as I have another appt. in a few hours. I’m down to the 2 week checks now…unbelievable. Thank you for the prayers.

All of the busyness of life makes the weeks of this pregnancy fly by so quickly that I am feeling this sense of wanting to just hold on tightly and not let go. I’m not ready for this pregnancy to end. I can’t tell you how desperately I want to meet this sweet little girl that kicks me all the time but I know that this is it. I can’t imagine that I will ever get this experience again after all we have gone through and my age so I feel like I just don’t want to let go and as each week flies by it is bittersweet to me. I know I am so much closer to holding this dear one in my arms but I’m also so much closer to not having that beautiful time of her being only with me…everywhere with me…feeling her little movements and all the other beautiful moments that only happen when baby is tucked safely inside the womb. Soon my belly will be empty again and I’ll have to share this baby with others and this sweet sweet season of my life will be over. That’s hard for me to believe…but…

What a precious gift childbearing is…there’s nothing like it. I’m so thankful that I’ve gotten to do this completely 4 times, now. I am so blessed. SO BLESSED! Soon this big rounded full belly will be once again empty but the blessing continues as I watch this baby come into this world and grow and become the person that God created her to be. I’m sad to see my pregnancy season end but oh, so very very thankful that I got to do it just one more time and that soon I’ll be cradling a new life in my arms.

So thankful.