God has made it clear to me…no more Estrobalance and I am relieved. I am SO very thankful for finding the cure for my infertility and I will continue to spread the good news to anyone that I come into contact with that could use the information, but my days with it are over and it’s finally crystal clear that I will no longer use it. Could there be more babies in the future? Sure. I still have open hands, but this is not the direction I will take any longer.

Again, it is incredible stuff and an answer to many prayers. So why I am I sure that I will no longer use it? Simple. I’ve developed an allergic reaction to it! Nothing could be clearer than that, huh?! I’m thankful that it is finally cut and dry for me and I can finally see where to go from here. Don’t worry if you are taking it. I have searched day after day hour after hour for any info on the internet about it causing adverse reactions and haven’t found a thing! As far as I can tell I am a completely isolated case and it has only developed over time. I had no problems with it the first time I took it and only mild problems with it the second time. The third time (which is recorded earlier in this blog) I had a hard time with it and then I’ve taken it for one day once last month and once this month and this last time I seriously thought I was dying! It the middle of vomiting, etc. at 2:00am I cried out to God and told Him that I would stop being stubborn if He would just stop me from being so severely sick. Within seconds I literally began to feel better. I crawled (yes…crawled) back to bed and I knew once and for all that that part of my life is done and I felt relief. Not relief that I may not have another baby, but relief that my mind could stop going back and forth over what I am supposed to do. Could it be more clear? I don’t think so.

My job now is to let others know about this new avenue of hope when they are lost and hurting from the pain of infertility. It’s not about me, anymore, it’s about sharing this with others. Isn’t it so cool how God not only gave me an answer for my problems but how He made it clear to me, not only when to use it, but when to stop using it. How awesome is that??? I don’t know how in the world I could live this life without His guidance. I really mean that. Sometimes, it seems that He is so silent or that He is just refusing to give me that guidance and then when it’s time, it all unfolds and His plan is revealed. Sometimes, it takes minutes, sometimes days, many times it takes months but often it takes years. He never fails to lead, though, as long as I continue to follow.

So, my plan now is to just trust. I am going to start on Arbonne’s progesterone cream this month after ovulation and if I don’t have any problems then I will continue to do that to try to regulate my hormones for other reasons other than fertility. Estrogen dominance causes way more problems than just infertility and I still want to get some control over it. The progesterone cream will also give me the added security that if I were to conceive again at some point I would have extra progesterone in my system and, hopefully, a better outcome. Interestingly enough, the LORD led me to an Arbonne representative months ago who was dealing with secondary infertility. It was just as I began this blog and she began following the plan on here and I’m so thrilled to announce that she is currently moving into her second trimester! Yea!! Now, she gets to help me by ordering my Arbonne cream, which from everything that I have read is an awesome product and I can’t wait to try it out.

It feels good to not be struggling with my next step. The only problem right now is dealing with my upcoming due date. Miscarried Baby #2 was due July 12 and as the date approaches the grief is coming back in waves. It hits me hard and unexpectedly, but I know that I will get through it. It’s just all part of the healing.