I held a newborn baby for the first time since my miscarriage and it was so sweet. We travelled to see family out of state this past weekend. I knew that I would get to see my new 2 week old nephew for the first time and I was, honestly, a bit nervous about it. I felt okay, but this miscarriage thing surprises me sometimes. Just when I think that I am fine, I will find myself reacting in an unexpectedly emotional way. So, I wasn’t convinced that I would be okay as we drove the 6 hours to our final destination but when we finally arrived and the baby was brought over to us, my worries disappeared. He was so adorable, and I was so happy to get to hold that little bundle that my own loss only crossed my mind a few times and not in a terrible way. Even though I have held numerous newborns in my life, each time it’s like the first time as I just marvel at how tiny and beautiful they are.

On a sad note, though, my little nephew is deaf. At this point, we aren’t sure if it is a permanent condition or if it can be corrected. He’ll need further testing for that to be established. Of course, we are all hoping and praying for the best. We’d love for others to join us in prayer for healing if you feel so led.