I can so relate to what you are saying. I come from a word of faith church and I too struggle with having/believing that kind of faith. Last Sunday my pastor preached on having the faith and claiming in the name of Jesus but then he added, and if it doesn’t happen…guess what? He’s still God. Sometimes its not our faith its just that it isn’t His will. I understood this better when I studied some of Job and Job asked his wife, Do I accept only good things from the Lord? No I accept all things from Him. Even when we don’t understand, all things are for His glory. I say this now but some days I sure don’t feel it. I’m going to try to speak these *confessions* and stand on God’s word and leave the rest to Him. Even though I may wrestle with it at times.

Sometimes the battle is tiring. Sometimes I feel like a spoiled child demanding my own way and I wonder should I just stop trying for more children? But you know what? I can’t do that. The desire inside of me is too strong. I have to believe that that is for a reason.

I am going to order the Estrobalance and give it a try. I also wrote down the other vitamins you mentioned and I’m going to try those also. I’m doing my second round of clomid this month and praying for the best.

I will be praying for you son. I’m so sorry. I know that has got to be hard. I pray that the Lord heal him and that he will not have to be on medications all the time.

Hugs to you my newfound sister in Christ.